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01 - The Morality of Monday

  Noah Bennett had always liked the chemistry building in the same way people liked old churches: they were full of quiet rules and the comforting promise that if you followed them, nothing would explode. No damnation, no runaway chain reaction.

  He sat at one of the middle benches in Lab 211C, notebook open, pen clicked, waiting for the syllabus. The room smelled of clean counters and faint disinfectant—sterile, reassuring. It was the smell of a controlled environment where variables were accounted for.

  Then the lab door at the front of the room opened, and the atmosphere shifted the way it always did when someone with authority walked in.

  Noah looked up, expecting a wizened lab instructor who would preach about respecting Bunsen burners and never messing with bromine.

  And then Rachel Ellis walked in.

  For a moment Noah’s brain refused to process it as Rachel Ellis, because Rachel Ellis belonged to his hallway. To late-summer evenings and accidental run-ins and the slow, strange discovery that he enjoyed being around someone enough to seek them out.

  Rachel Ellis did not belong behind the front bench of a chemistry lab.

  This Rachel was different.

  Hair neatly secured, copper locks controlled. Glasses in place. A blazer over something simple, professional. A lanyard and keys. A clipboard held in both hands like it was either a shield or a weapon, depending on the day.

  She crossed to the front bench, set her things down, and looked up at the room. Her gaze swept the seats.

  Found Noah.

  Held.

  Noah’s brain made an error noise.

  It tried to slot her into the correct category by force: neighbour. Rae. Girl who had looked at him last night like kissing him was the most reasonable thing in the world and then acted on the belief accordingly.

  It tried to reconcile that with the scene in front of him: lab benches, safety posters, the quiet expectation of authority.

  Rachel’s expression flickered—so fast he almost missed it.

  Confusion first, sharp and genuine.

  Then recognition, like a door opening onto a room she hadn’t meant to enter. Then the smallest widening of her eyelids, a fraction of a second where the world she was living in shattered in a first-year chemistry lab.

  Noah felt his own face go cold. He did a quick internal inventory of facts, the way he did when something went wrong:

  Rachel was not a grad student.

  Rachel was not just a TA.

  Rachel was standing at the front of his lab.

  And his brain was still stuck on how she’d looked in the soft light of his living room.

  The next thought arrived with horrible clarity, clean and simple:

  Oh.

  Then, a beat later, with the full weight of it:

  Oh, no.

  Noah Bennett believed in systems.

  Not in a grand, philosophical sense—he did not wake up each morning thinking today I will uphold the social contract. He believed in systems the way you believed in railings and receipts: as things that kept you from falling down stairs, or at least from falling down stairs without documentation.

  For example: garbage day.

  Garbage day at King’s Park Flats was Tuesday, which meant Monday night had a particular sort of moral levity. You could do questionable things on a Monday and still consider yourself basically decent, because the consequences were temporary. A chicken carcass, double-bagged and sent down the chute on a Monday, was a choice made in the name of public hygiene. A chicken carcass, double-bagged and sent down the chute on a Thursday, was a crime against every other resident and, arguably, God.

  Noah stood at his kitchen counter and regarded the remains of dinner with the solemnity of a man performing a small, necessary burial.

  He’d roasted the chicken properly—salt, pepper, lemon, garlic, time, heat, patience. Cooking was just chemistry with better smells and fewer mandatory safety videos. Baking, on the other hand, was witchcraft. If he ever saw a cake recipe in a dark alley, he would cross the street.

  He slid the carcass into one bag, knotted it, slid that bag into another bag, knotted that too, and paused.

  There was, inevitably, a whisper of guilt.

  He could see his own face in the darkened microwave door—an expression that suggested if he was ever going to be judged, it wouldn’t be for sins of malice, but for sins of convenience.

  “No regrets,” he told the microwave, because it felt like the kind of thing you were supposed to say when making morally ambiguous decisions. “Garbage day is tomorrow.”

  The microwave did not respond. It never did. It had the cold indifference of appliances and certain family members.

  Noah took the bag out into the hallway after confirming the corridor was empty, because if you carried a double-bagged chicken carcass past a neighbour, you were forcing them to participate in your choices.

  The corridor was quiet. The building’s beige carpet absorbed sound the way it absorbed everything else: politely, and with the implication that it would hold it against you later.

  He opened the trash chute door and dropped the bag in. It vanished with a few unpleasant thuds and a muffled, final thump.

  Relief, immediate and physical.

  That was when the crash happened.

  It came from across the hall—sharp and heavy, followed by a smaller, offended clatter.

  Noah stopped.

  Noah stopped. He had a sequence for moments like this, an automatic protocol. Don't panic, mostly because panic made people loud. Don't assume, because assumptions led to errors, and errors led to apologies, and apologies were excruciating for everyone involved. Then came the complicated part: the careful preservation of other people’s dignity.

  Noah stared at Rachel Ellis’s door.

  She’d moved in just recently, and was new enough that the building still treated her like a guest it hadn’t decided to trust. She met it with the same wary uncertainty he’d seen on move-in day, when the elevator was doing something that felt like a private joke at her expense.

  He’d seen her more than once since then, passing in the hallway or the lobby. She had copper hair that turned orange in the sun, glasses, and the determined expression of someone who wanted to look like she knew exactly what she was doing.

  Occasionally, he hadn’t found that expression terribly convincing. But, unless there was an obvious problem, he had no intention of turning things into a conversation she hadn’t asked for. Partially out of consideration for her efforts, he’d categorized her as a person who did not need to be rescued.

  Noah understood that.

  He also understood gravity.

  He walked to her door and raised his hand to knock.

  And then he didn’t.

  Because knocking was, in itself, an intrusion. It meant: I heard you. It meant: I am aware you are having a moment. It meant: Hello, yes, I have brought my attention to your private inconvenient situation.

  Rachel would probably hate that. Or, maybe she’d be fine with it, but rolling dice with other people’s pride wasn’t exactly neighbourly.

  He lowered his hand and waited, listening.

  Silence.

  Then—faintly—a muffled noise that might have been a curse. Controlled, as if she didn’t want the apartment to hear it.

  Which suggested she was alive. Good.

  Noah could go back inside, now. He could let her handle it. He could respect the boundaries he’d presumed and mind his business like an adult. He stood there for another second, letting that thought settle. It did not settle. It slid off his brain like water off a well-oiled pan.

  Noah sighed. He was going to knock.

  He was going to knock in a way that gave her an exit, because an off-ramp from an unwanted encounter was the most important gift you could offer a stranger.

  He knocked lightly. Twice.

  There was movement on the other side of the door. Then a pause. Then the sound of a lock.

  The door opened a careful crack, and Rachel appeared in the gap like a person making an appearance on stage—chin lifted, expression neutral, eyes slightly too bright.

  “Hi,” she said, going for a normal greeting as if she’d been doing something sedate and not, twenty seconds prior, making a noise loud enough to knock the peace out of the hallway.

  Noah kept his voice light. “Hey.”

  Rachel’s eyes flicked past him toward the corridor—as if checking whether the building itself had gathered an audience.

  Noah kept his focus strictly on her face. He refused to look past her or peer into the apartment, holding his gaze like someone who respected the concept of a threshold.

  “I thought I heard something,” he said, carefully. “Everything alright?”

  Rachel’s smile arrived instantly. It was polite. It was also… a little tight.

  “Yes,” she said. “I’m fine.”

  Noah nodded slowly, as if he accepted this information without question.

  Then, from deeper inside, came the slow, despairing wail of Styrofoam—long enough to sound like a death rattle—followed by a thump, suggesting it had given up on the object it was protecting.

  Noah’s gaze remained on Rachel’s face, because he wasn’t going to look into her home without permission, and was therefore going to pretend he hadn’t heard the unmistakable soundtrack of an inanimate object breaching containment.

  Rachel held his gaze, defiantly. Her cheeks coloured faintly.

  “Well,” she began, and then stopped, briefly considering what could hold the entire situation together. “It’s just…”

  Noah waited. He let the silence stretch in a way that wasn’t pressure. He was good at silence. Silence had kept him safe in certain houses at the right time.

  Rachel exhaled—tight, controlled. “My… TV.”

  Noah’s mouth twitched. “Is it… intact?”

  Rachel blinked, then looked faintly affronted at herself for almost laughing. “The TV is fine,” she said, with the careful dignity of someone who had just been forced to clarify that the inanimate object was not, in fact, injured. “The… mount is not.”

  Noah nodded. “Ah.”

  Rachel’s gaze dropped briefly, like she was checking whether the floor would open up and swallow her.

  Noah kept his tone mild. “Do you want a hand?”

  She stiffened. “No.”

  The word came out immediate and absolute—arriving before the offer had fully landed.

  Noah nodded deeply, indicating a thorough understanding of the concept of no. “Okay,” he said. “No worries.”

  He should leave. He could leave. He didn’t—at least not yet.

  He added, gently, because he couldn’t help himself: “I’m asking because it sounded a bit unforgiving, and maybe hard to handle alone. If you’re fine, great. I just didn’t want you to be stuck. Or hurt.”

  Rachel’s mouth tightened with the smallest tension. It was something close to embarrassment trying to dress itself as irritation.

  “I’m not stuck,” she said.

  Noah made a thoughtful sound, the kind people made when they were about to be tactful. “Okay.”

  From inside the apartment came a quiet metallic ping, followed by the faint, humiliating roll of something cylindrical having gained inertia.

  Rachel’s eyes shut for a second.

  Noah did not comment on the sound. He didn’t have to. The apartment had already done the commentary.

  Rachel opened her eyes again and stared at him for half a second, as if deciding whether to keep performing. Then she sighed—small, defeated, human.

  “I might be stuck,” she admitted, looking like the admission cost her dearly.

  Noah nodded once, as if this was an entirely normal thing to say on a Monday evening. “Alright.”

  Rachel opened the door wider, stepping back. The gesture was invitational, despite her weakening verbal resistance.

  “It’s, well. I could probably, you know,” she said quickly, as if she could still salvage the idea that this was under control. “I just—” She closed her eyes, realizing she was unable to maintain much of a defence after all that he’d heard. “It might be a two-person job…”

  “There are plenty of those when moving in,” Noah said.

  She opened the door fully, looking down at her feet. He stepped inside with the carefulness of someone entering a room where rules existed but hadn’t been spoken out loud.

  He took one look at the bracket packaging on the floor and the TV that had slid out of its Styrofoam insulation, and made a swift internal inventory.

  This was not going to be a hold it while I squint and hope situation. This was going to require, at minimum, something to measure with, something to level with, and something that could persuade screws to enter drywall without starting a war.

  “Definitely not something I’d try alone,” Noah lied, lightly and with a couple of serious nods. He looked back at Rachel. “Give me a minute. I’ve got tools, if you want to get this done this evening.”

  She just nodded once, resigned to her fate. He pretended not to see the pink that had crept up the edges of her ears.

  Noah crossed the hall, opened his closet, and looked at the comically large toolbox. He quickly decided to grab a smaller bag so as to not make his obsession with preparedness look like some sort of flex, threw in what he knew he’d need, and went back across the hall.

  Rachel was standing exactly where he’d left her, arms folded loosely like she was trying to look casual while her apartment betrayed her. She held the door open as he stepped in, and closed it quietly, as though to make up for the noise that came and was yet to come.

  He took in the living room in a glance, because he was observant, and because the room contained things that were, frankly, telling and hard to miss. The couch sat in the middle like a lone island of completion. A cardboard box with a picture of a coffee table waited nearby, smug in its innocence, mirrored by the box in her kitchen which likely contained another table, equally unassembled and aware of it. The TV leaned against the wall like a hostage. The mounting bracket packaging lay open on the floor, and a few screws had rolled away as if trying to escape.

  Rachel followed his eyes and flushed. “It was supposed to be simple, according to the instructions,” she said, which was the most dangerous sentence in adult life.

  Noah crouched near the bracket, careful not to touch anything yet. “It usually is,” he said. “Until drywall gets involved.”

  Rachel made a thin, embarrassed noise. “I don’t even have a drill, I don’t know why I tried…”

  Noah glanced up at her, clocking a need for a final, absolute amnesty. “That’s okay. Drills are just screwdrivers with delusions of grandeur. Not to be underestimated in their implications.”

  Her lips pressed together like she was deciding whether to laugh and embrace admission or be offended. She ended up with something close to the latter—small and unwilling.

  Noah felt, unhelpfully, pleased.

  “Do you have the bracket and the hardware?” he asked, nodding at the scene of the crime. “The tiny bag of choking hazards that came with it?”

  Rachel pointed with a tight gesture. “All there, in the box and, well, around.” She walked nearby and knelt to pick up the nuts that had attempted a prison break.

  Noah nodded. “Okay. I’ll do the measuring and marking first. Do you want it centered on the wall or centered on the couch?”

  Rachel blinked, then looked faintly relieved to be offered a way beyond any discussion of needing help and into the part that required collaboration. “Centered on the couch,” she said after a beat.

  “Good choice,” Noah said, and reached into his tool bag, one hand for the measuring tape and pencil, the other for an object of wonder and magic.

  Rachel’s eyes narrowed when he pulled out the small mystery box. “What is that?”

  Noah held it up, mildly proud despite himself. “Stud finder.”

  Rachel stared. “You own a stud finder.”

  “I do.”

  “How.” The word's inflection was missing, presumably due to it being more of an accusation and less of a question.

  Noah shrugged. “I like things that beep at me when I’m right. It’s a tangible source of vindication.”

  Rachel looked at the stud finder again, then gave him a look—half disbelief, half suppressed appreciation—that made something unfamiliar stir in Noah’s chest.

  He set to work immediately, because if he examined that feeling for longer than two seconds he would become visibly earnest and less quippy, and that would be uncomfortable and untenable ground.

  They did it properly: measured, leveled, marked. Noah ran the stud finder along the wall with practiced patience, listening for the beep that said yes, there is structure here, and you will find the chalky drywall promised land that will not betray you completely.

  Rachel hovered close enough to watch, far enough not to be in the way, hands clasping and unclasping like she was trying not to fidget. When Noah gave her tasks, she accepted them quickly—grateful for a job.

  The bracket went up cleanly. The anchors held. Nothing cracked. No new disasters came.

  Then arrived the part neither of them could do alone.

  Noah and Rachel lifted the TV together. It was not particularly heavy, mercifully, but Noah adjusted his grip, taking a little more of the weight without making a show of it all the same.

  They got it onto the mount, Rachel providing some physical support but mostly giving the necessary guidance to the proper alignment.

  It clicked into place with a satisfying, final sound.

  They held it with lessening resolve for half a second, in case the stud finder’s claims weren’t anything but honest.

  It held, and her shoulders were unburdened by two kinds of weight. The relief on her face was so immediate and genuine that Noah felt it as well, like a sympathetic exhale.

  “Okay,” Rachel said quietly. “Okay.”

  Noah stepped back, hands on his hips, and allowed himself a small smile. “Mission accomplished. I believe my role now requires me to tap the side of it twice and say, ‘That’s not going anywhere.’”

  Rachel let out a laugh—real this time, slightly breathless. “Don’t,” she said, but she was smiling too.

  Noah’s gaze drifted, without meaning to, past the living room toward the kitchen—and then he stopped himself. He didn’t stare. He wasn’t a guest in her apartment to inventory her life. Still, he registered the impression immediately: tidy, but sterile. It wasn't home yet. A couple mugs. A stack of paper plates, still in plastic. Clean counters, untouched by use or time.

  Rachel followed his glance and stiffened. “I haven’t—” she began, and then stopped, because the sentence could end in too many humiliating places.

  Noah made a decision fast and gentle, the way you did when you didn’t want someone to step into a trap of their own making.

  He turned back to the TV and nodded at it like it was the only topic available. “That’s one big thing off the list,” he said.

  Rachel swallowed. “Yeah.”

  Noah kept his tone casual, masking the concern with practical logistics. “Are you having dinner?”

  Rachel’s eyes widened a fraction, caught. “Yes,” she said instantly.

  Noah nodded. “Great.” A beat passed. Noah continued, in the same even voice, like this was normal and not a test: “What are you having?”

  Rachel’s face went blank in an almost impressive way. Her mouth opened. Closed.

  Noah waited, not unkind.

  Rachel’s cheeks colored. “I—” she started, and then, very quietly, “I was going to...”

  “There’s a place on Elm called The Golden Dragon that delivers fast,” he said. “Good noodles. Or, honestly, good everything, despite the uninspired name. If you order now, it’ll probably get here before you have time to decide that your efforts today earn no merit.”

  Rachel blinked. “I wasn’t—”

  Noah lifted a hand. “I’m projecting,” he said, keeping it light. “When I’ve had long days with a few too many struggles, I’m typically one step away from eating peanut butter out of the jar like a raccoon.”

  Rachel stared for a moment, the fact that she’d been caught evident and undeniable.

  Then she exhaled, sharp and small. “Okay,” she said, like agreeing to a treaty. “Golden Dragon?”

  Noah nodded once, brisk. “That’s the one.”

  Rachel glanced at him, hesitant. Noah knew what she was considering, familiar with the compulsion. Balance the scales. Turn help into a transaction so it didn’t feel like a debt.

  He cut it off gently before she could trap herself.

  “Well,” he said, smiling in a way he hoped didn’t embarrass her. “I should go. I’ve got a roasting pan soaking at home, and if I leave it too long it will become a science experiment.”

  Something flickered across her face—too fast to name cleanly—and then it was gone. Noah pretended he hadn’t seen it. He slipped his tools into the bag—swift, efficient movements—and stepped toward the door.

  Leaving was the final step in making help safe.

  “I’ll see you around,” he said.

  Rachel nodded. Her hands clasped again, like she was holding herself together now that the immediate crisis had passed. “Thank you,” she said. The words came out careful, like gratitude was a fragile object.

  Noah paused at the threshold and looked back at the mounted TV.

  “It looks good,” he said. “Seriously.”

  Rachel’s face softened, just for a beat, something he hadn’t yet seen, but was grateful to have earned. “Yeah,” she said, quieter. “It does.”

  Noah didn’t linger. He slipped out and clicked the door shut.

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