Rebecca Pov

  It was like 11 o'clock at night, (so not like late late, but not early), I was having a cuppa in the kitchen, (I couldn't even tell you why I hadn't just popped into the living room with it), Levi was in bed asleep, (I probably could've stayed in bed, but tossing and turning was way harder to do being like 8 months pregnant).

  I was having a cuppa because I literally just had a nightmare about Jack's murder, (I still get them even now, and it's like almost 35 years later), (yes it's a pain in the arse that I get nightmares with the little that I do sleep), I was honestly so close to just going back to bed with my cuppa anyway as the house in the dark had creeped me out since Teddy 'broke in', (I still can't fully articulate why that was, even to this day), but then my water broke and I had to go up the stairs anyway to wake Levi up, (I was not giving birth alone, fuck that shit).

  "Levi, Levi!"

  "You alright Babe?"

  "My water broke"

  "Shit, would your Dad be up at this time?"

  "No, man sleeps like the dead, you remember how loud we were for that party ye threw for my 13th birthday right?"

  "Yeah, I remember"

  "Grandbob however will wake up if you ring his landline, plus he has a key to Dad's if we forget it when dropping Jordan off"

  Levi was freaking out, (not externally, but I know his mannerisms here), but I couldn't figure out why that was, because to me, we had already done this once before, and we had no plans, let alone backup plans, (I know that emotions aren't logical, and I knew that at the time, but I was still confused).

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  "You seem way too calm"

  "We've done this before and we have a plan, and a backup plan if the plan fails"

  "What if the backup plan fails?"

  "Then we're fucked and I will freak out, but we should be fine, have you been reading what can go wrong?"

  "How do you know?"

  "You're a bit predictable like that"

  Yes I can actually attempt to desolate the situation, no I was not good at it, (though I really should've been an expert on it considering some of the arguments that Jack and Rita had over the years), but I can do it, and yeah I was uncharacteristically calm in this situation, however, in my head at the time, I had survived giving birth to a baby that I didn't know I was pregnant with, of course I was going to be ok with this birth, (no, this train of thought doesn't work, but I was being truly fucking hopeful about shit).

  Anyway, we got to the hospital, (as you do), and honestly they didn't believe us when we said that I was in labour, (apparently I was 'too chill', so that was fucking weird), it wasn't until they checked themselves that they were like, "Holy shit you're like 7cms!", though I found out afterwards that Autistic women tend not to report pain like it's expected even though we can feel it like way more, so maybe that might've contributed to this, (though I'm entirely sure on that).

  I don't remember what happened after this, (my brain has like properly blocked it out), but I was in labour like a good few hours, (I know that much as I looked at the clock when we got to the hospital and then after I gave birth), I was honestly out of it for most of it, and I know that Levi was freaking out about that fact, even if he'd never admit that out loud.

  Anyway, the next thing that I remember is that I had already given birth, my memory of the ins and outs are really hazy now, so don't quote me fully on any of it, but I knew that Levi was holding the baby, and I knew that I felt like shit, (so I actually proved Levi right, and I don't love admitting that I was wrong).

  "Are they ok?"

  "Yeah Babe, he's ok"

  "That answers my next question, how long have I been out of it?"

  "Not long, like 20 minutes at most Babe"

  "You were right to be worried"

  "Did you just-"

  "Shh, yeah I did, but no, I won't talk about that again, not fully at least, what do you want to call him?"

  "What about Elijah?"

  "I like it"

  Yes asking Levi about a name was a distraction tactic, no I wouldn't change how Elijah's name actually came about, yes it's not exactly a conventional way to name a person, but like it's not naming someone out of spite so I'm taking that as a win.