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CHAPTER TWO: Ive Been Dying to Love

  Mess

  Hall Tango – 11:50

  The

  Academy mess hall grinds along like a slaughterhouse draped in

  civility. Long tables masquerade as polished oak, but the veneer is

  thin, scarred by years of knives and elbows. Steam rises thick from

  the serving line, carrying grease and spice, while fluorescent lights

  buzz overhead like dying insects. Beneath the clatter of trays and

  forced conversation, a thousand rivalries simmer, quiet, patient,

  lethal.

  Lucille

  drifts through it all like a ghost that hasn’t yet learned it’s

  dead. Cain walks beside her, taller, steadier, his tray piled high

  enough for two. He matches her short stride without thinking, the way

  he has since they were small, though even he senses the wire coiled

  beneath her skin today, humming with violence.

  She

  loads her tray by rote: a square of cornbread gone cold at the edges,

  pulled pork swimming in dark gravy, mashed sweet potatoes slick with

  butter, collard greens bitter and overcooked, a fried catfish fillet

  curling at the corners. Food for fuel, not pleasure. Calories counted

  in survival, not savor.

  Cain’s

  tray is deliberate: smoked chicken breast dusted red with paprika,

  roasted okra crisp and charred, cornbread still warm, green beans

  glistening with butter. Chosen with care, enough to sustain, enough

  to remember taste matters.

  They

  sit at an empty stretch near the wall. Lucille eats with mechanical

  fury, fork scraping plate like she’s punishing the food for

  existing. The scents cling heavy, sweet starch, fried batter, pork

  fat, but they do nothing to warm the hollow under her ribs.

  Cain

  breaks first. He always does.

  “Rough

  mornin’?” Cain asks quietly.

  Lucille

  shrugs, eyes on her tray. “Tired.”

  A

  lie, thin as the steam curling between them.

  He

  doesn’t press. Tears into a roll instead, watching her bandaged

  knuckles flex and tense. He fills the quiet with safe things: next

  period’s field medicine, the instructor who loses his glasses

  mid-lecture, whispers of surprise evaluations. Light topics, offered

  like bandages over a wound he can’t see.

  Her

  answers come short, edged. But she listens. He knows she does.

  Near

  the end of the meal, when her assault on the plate slows, he tries

  again, quieter.

  “You

  alright, Lucy?”

  She

  stiffens. Barely. “Told you I’m tired.”

  Lie

  number two, sharper.

  Cain

  nods like he believes it, but his eyes say different: I see you. I

  know. Let me in.


  Silence

  settles, heavy, inevitable.

  Then

  the air shifts, sours.

  Maelia

  and Tiber stride in.

  Lucille

  doesn’t look up, but her shoulders draw tight as bowstrings. Cain

  feels the change beside him like a blade sliding free.

  Maelia’s

  laugh rings out, high, crystalline, cruel. Tiber’s boots thud

  heavier than necessary.

  Lucille’s

  spoon freezes halfway to her mouth.

  Cain

  sets his own down, soft, deliberate.

  “Lucille—”

  he starts.

  Too

  late.

  Maelia

  and Tiber drop their trays across the table with a clatter meant to

  announce conquest. Maelia’s smile cuts clean. Tiber leans back,

  smirk honed sharp.

  “Well

  now,” Maelia croons, voice bright as broken glass. “You two do

  eat together an awful lot.” She tilts her head, smile

  sharpening. “Folks might start thinkin’ Cain Aurellius has gone

  soft on orphans.”

  Lucille

  chews mechanically, building walls bite by bite. Fork whites in her

  grip.

  Cain

  tilts his head, calm masking storm. “Afternoon, Maelia.”

  Tiber

  leans forward, elbows wide. “Seriously? Domitian again?” He pops

  a grape into his mouth. “You can do better than that, Aurellius.

  She’s dead weight on your name.”

  Lucille’s

  breath snags. Fork trembles.

  “She’s

  better company than most,” Cain replies evenly.

  Maelia

  laughs, light and cruel. “Oh, don’t be dramatic. Orphans are

  statistically—”

  “Enough,

  Maelia.” Cain’s voice cuts clean, cold iron beneath silk. “Sit

  down, or walk away. Your choice.”

  She

  blinks, affronted. Tiber’s sneer deepens.

  “Let’s

  not pretend,” Tiber drawls. “If her folks wanted her, she

  wouldn’t be Domitian trash. And if yours actually cared ’bout

  your future, Cain, you’d cut her loose.” He smirks. “Right now

  she’s just charity.”

  Lucille

  locks. Every muscle seizes. Teeth sink into her lip until copper

  blooms.

  “We’re

  not—” Cain snaps, then reins it in, disgust sharp. “That’s

  vile, Tiber. We’re family.”

  Tiber

  shrugs, lazy cruelty. “Exactly.”

  Cain

  sets his fork down, precise, controlled. The sound still cracks. “No

  one knows what happened to her blood,” he says quietly. “You

  don’t either. So stop spittin’ on things you don’t understand.”

  His eyes harden. “You sound like spoiled children.”

  Maelia

  scoffs. Tiber rolls his eyes.

  Lucille

  shovels food faster, rage rising hot and ancient, fifteen years of

  being unwanted, unclaimed, lesser. Skin prickles. Stomach knots. She

  swallows fury with every bite, but it burns going down.

  Maelia

  picks at her cheese, oblivious. “You’re cruel,

  Cain. Leadin’ her on like this.”

  Cain’s

  gaze snaps to her. “Leadin’ her how, exactly?”

  Tiber

  smiles slow. “Makin’ her think she’ll matter after graduation.”

  He tilts his head. “She won’t. She’s a stray. A project. House

  Aurellius isn’t gonna stain itself for a Domitian.”

  The

  words land like blows.

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  Lucille’s

  fork bends in her grip.

  Something

  inside Lucille fractures clean.

  She

  surges to her feet so fast the bench screeches across stone, tray

  slamming the table with a crack that echoes like gunfire. Cain

  startles beside her, fork clattering from his fingers. Heads snap

  around, dozens of eyes pinning her in place.

  Her

  chest heaves, ragged. Voice comes low, trembling with something feral

  scraped raw. “You stink.”

  Maelia

  blinks. “I’m sorry, what?”

  “You

  heard me,” Lucille rasps. “Both of you.” Her voice shakes, ugly

  and honest. “You stink like rot. Like sickness. Can’t stand

  breathin’ the same air.”

  The

  hall quiets further, conversations dying mid-word.

  Cain

  sucks in air. “Lucy—”

  But

  she moves already.

  Boots

  hammer polished floor as she storms toward disposal, empty tray

  crashing onto the stack, metal ringing sharp, drawing more stares.

  Students shrink back as she passes, sensing the wounded danger

  radiating off her like heat from a forge.

  “Lucille!”

  Cain calls, voice cracking. He bolts after, weaving through bodies.

  “Wait, damn it, wait!”

  Her

  shoulders hunch tight, fists clenched until knuckles bleach beneath

  bandages. Head down, she barrels on, every step a pulse of fury,

  grief, terror barely leashed.

  Cain

  skids to a halt midway, jaw locking. Rage flares hot in his eyes. He

  wheels back toward the table.

  He

  turns back, fury stripped bare. “You two,” Cain says, voice low

  and lethal, “are pathetic.” A step closer. “Cruel.” Another.

  “Arrogant.” His lip curls. “And too damn stupid to hear how

  ugly you sound.”

  Maelia

  gasps, hand to chest. Tiber half-rises, face twisting.

  Cain

  doesn’t wait. He snatches his tray, shoves it aside with a clatter,

  and stalks after Lucille, predator chasing the only thing that

  matters. He won’t let their poison swallow her. Not alone. Not

  again.

  The

  Halls of the Central Wing – Continuous

  The

  corridor yawns wide, vaulted ceilings soaring into shadow, faded

  banners stirring in cold drafts that snake through the stone like

  ghosts. The press of students thins; chatter fades to a dull murmur

  swallowed by marble. Cain spots her ahead, small, hunched, fists

  knotted at her sides, walking like every step expects a knife between

  the shoulder blades.

  “Lucille!”

  His voice bounces sharp off the walls. Boots hammer faster, closing

  the gap. Fingers close gentle but firm around her elbow, halting her

  without force.

  She

  freezes, chin tucked, breath shallow and quick. Cain steps in front,

  blocking escape, forcing her eyes up. His gaze holds, steady, warm,

  unyielding. For one breath the vast hall shrinks to just them.

  “I’m

  sorry,” Cain says, low and sincere. “For every word they threw at

  you. None of it’s true. Not a damn bit.”

  Her

  arm slips free, not angry, just brittle, breaking. “It

  is true,” she whispers. “Everyone says it. Always have.”

  Her

  voice splinters. “I’m bad luck, Cain. Why would a prince waste

  his time on trash like me?”

  He

  studies her too long, seeing the belief carved deep. He

  steps closer. “I don’t give a damn what they think. Not Maelia.

  Not Tiber. Not any of ’em.”

  Her

  shoulders curl tighter, bracing. He softens further. “We’ve

  been side by side since we were five,” he continues, softer. “You

  dragged me outta that river twice before we even hit twelve.” A

  faint, fond breath. “You train harder than anyone I know. You’re

  the only person here who never lies to me.” His voice firms. “I

  can’t picture anyone else beside me. Not now. Not ever.”

  Her

  eyes flick up, testing, hunting for deceit. The storm inside her

  quivers, eases a fraction.

  “We’ll

  be soldiers together,” he adds, a small honest smile breaking

  through. “Maybe legends, if we’re stubborn enough. The kind they

  carve into these walls.”

  Lucille

  swallows hard. Her jaw locks. Breath snags. The rage doesn’t

  vanish, it buckles, folds, leaves a raw hollow space for something

  fragile.

  “Cain…”

  Her voice cracks. “I don’t know how much longer I can keep takin’

  this.”

  His

  brow creases. “Lu—”

  “It’s

  worse every year,” she presses on, jagged. “When we were little,

  they just ignored me. Like dirt on their boots.”

  Her breath

  shudders. “Now they look at me like they want me gone.” A fist to

  her chest. “I train harder. I study. I keep my head down. And they

  still hate me, just for a name I never chose.”

  Cain

  edges closer, hand hovering, giving her room to bolt. She doesn’t.

  “They

  don’t hate you,” Cain says quietly. “They hate what

  they think you are.” His tone hardens, certain. “And they’re

  wrong.” A beat. “You ain’t cursed, Lucy. You’re the strongest

  person I know.”

  Her

  eyes squeeze shut. She trembles, just enough.

  “You

  don’t gotta carry this alone,” he says. “And you won’t.” A

  promise, steady as stone. “I’m here. Always.”

  He

  tilts his head, seeking her gaze again. “You’re

  Lucille Domitian,” he finishes. “And one day every last one of

  ’em’s gonna choke wishin’ they’d treated you better.”

  The

  hall blurs, banners, whispers, cold stone fading to grey. Something

  loosens in her chest, fragile relief threading through the ache.

  Cain

  squeezes her shoulder once more, nods down the corridor. “Come

  on,” Cain says, gentler now. “Korvin don’t wait.”

  A

  ghost of breath escapes her, almost laughter. He smiles, relieved,

  and slides his fingers through hers, warm, certain, a promise. He

  tugs gently. “Let’s go.”

  Her

  steps match his without thought. She glances at their joined hands,

  the subtle press when bodies crowd too close, the quiet shield he’s

  always been. Something stirs warm and confusing beneath her ribs. She

  shoves it down deep with the anger, the hurt, the loneliness.

  “Almost

  there,” he adds with a boyish grin. “Try and keep up.”

  She

  nods, grip tightening instinctive.

  Hand

  in hand they move through the river of uniforms, two against the

  weight of cruelty and rumor. Something quiet has shifted in her,

  irrevocable. A small ember of trust takes root beneath ash and scar.

  For

  now, it is enough.

  Period

  5: Advanced Weapons Practicum – 13:00

  The

  period bell tolls heavy, like a heartbeat from the Academy’s iron

  core. Cain squeezes Lucille’s hand once more before they step

  inside.

  The

  room bites colder than the rest, not air, but intent. Desks align

  with surgical precision. At the front, Korvin’s station looms dark

  and empty. Holographic boards flicker ghostly blue. The far wall

  stands bare, stone etched with faint grid scars, a silent altar to

  discipline. Weapons hang racked beneath recessed lights: blunted

  swords, weighted polearms, shock-staves, paired daggers, exotic

  blades from distant wars. The air reeks of oil, steel, and the thin

  metallic taste of fear.

  Cain

  guides her to their usual seats, back third, shadowed enough to

  breathe. She sits, shoulders drawn, but her breath evens. He watches

  without seeming to.

  The

  room fills. Seraphine settles behind Lucille, hair pinned merciless.

  Dacien and Caius whisper venom, still chewing lunch’s drama. Rhen

  Tiberion ducks through the door like a siege engine, blocking light

  before settling.

  Then

  silence falls like a blade.

  Varian

  Korvin enters.

  No

  stride, no sound, just presence stretching across the floor. Uniform

  black with silver trim, sleeves rolled, one sheathed practice blade

  in hand. Silence doesn’t follow him; it arrives ahead.

  He

  walks the aisles slow, gaze dissecting, reading bone, muscle, intent.

  Lucille’s

  spine locks. Cain swallows.

  “Good

  afternoon,” Korvin says, voice soft, surgical. “I am Instructor

  Varian Korvin. This is Advanced Weapons Practicum.” A pause.

  Silence deepens. “You will learn weapons of war. Not ceremony. Not

  pride. Survival.”

  He

  sets the blade down with a click like a round chambered.

  “No

  wood. Blunted steel only. Anything lighter lies about weight, reach,

  and death.” A beat. “You will adapt. You will not waste my time.”

  His

  eyes linger on Lucille, long enough to catalog the fresh blood

  darkening her bandages.

  “Rise.”

  They

  obey as one.

  “Formation.

  Left.”

  Bodies

  flow, some graceful, some trembling. Cain’s shoulder brushes hers,

  anchor.

  Korvin

  stations himself by the racks, hands clasped behind like a resting

  predator.

  “Swords,”

  he says. “One-handed. Standard issue.”

  Steel

  passes hand to hand. He watches every grip.

  Lucille

  takes hers steady, blood seeping anew. Korvin notes it, neither pity

  nor praise.

  “Lines.

  Offensive.”

  He

  prowls, correcting with lethal economy: nudge an elbow, tilt a wrist,

  murmur that cuts deeper than bark. Stops behind Lucille.

  She

  stills inside, breath measured.

  He

  stops behind Lucille.

  “Your

  form,” Korvin says quietly, “is not textbook.”

  She

  adjusts, settles into the stance earned in isolation and pain.

  A

  breath. “…Effective.”

  Whispers

  ripple. Cain’s eyes widen. Seraphine’s jaw sets hard.

  “Cease.”

  Blades

  rack. Polearms distribute, long, unforgiving.

  Lucille

  steps in. Seraphine crowds close behind. It comes subtle: a polearm

  hook disguised as clumsiness, a trip meant to humiliate.

  Lucille

  stumbles, catches balance, recovers silent. Cain’s head snaps. Eyes

  flash warning. Smirks flicker around them.

  Korvin’s

  voice slices clean: “Domitian.”

  She

  meets his gaze, world narrowing to cold assessment.

  “You

  lost your footing,” Korvin says. “Again.”

  No

  excuse forms. “Yes, Instructor.”

  “Correct

  it.”

  He

  moves on.

  Lucille

  resets, precise, lethal, untouchable beneath Seraphine’s glare.

  Korvin

  watches. Silent. Weighing.

  She

  has been seen.

  Not

  praised. Not spared.

  But

  marked.

  In

  this room, that is everything.

  Grand,

  shadowed academy corridors, vaulted stone, banners, isolation.

  Intimate

  moment of comfort between young survivors.

  Cold,

  precise weapons training hall, racks of blunted steel, unforgiving

  light.

  Korvin’s

  quiet, predatory authority over the class.

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