I didn’t ask to be here.
I didn’t choose this breath,
this name,
this body I’m expected to inhabit like a home.
I didn’t sign any contract
that said I wanted to feel
or break
or hope
or keep stitching myself together
every time the world pulled me apart.
I just arrived—
dropped into a life mid-sentence,
buried in expectations
I never agreed to carry.
Everyone talks about gratitude
like it’s mandatory,
like I should be thankful
for a heartbeat I never requested,
for a map I didn’t draw,
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for a world that feels too sharp
against skin that’s always been too soft.
Some days I move through rooms
like a tenant in someone else’s house—
touching nothing,
belonging nowhere,
trying not to wake the ghosts
that seem more at home than I am.
Existing feels like a debt
I don’t remember owing.
Every sunrise arrives
like another reminder
that the universe volunteered me
for a life I didn’t interview for.
But still—
I get up.
I move.
I breathe.
Not because I chose this,
but because I’m here
and I haven’t figured out
what else to do with that truth.
Maybe that’s its own rebellion:
to stay in a world
I never wanted,
to shape it slowly
with hands that tremble,
to carve out a space
where the unwanted parts of me
are finally allowed to exist
without apology.
I didn’t choose to be born.
But if I have to be here,
then let me be here honestly—
unwilling,
unpolished,
uninvited,
but still
somehow
impossibly
alive.

