Chapter 4

  To know what I truly am one must know concepts and knowledge unknown and known leave behind anything and everything and except that what was once shall be again, has always been and possible never was.

  Wait as much as I learned and still learning your contradicting yourself.

  So there is absolutely no contradictions whatsoever in anything you've read? So I assume quantum states are real and not a real contradiction?

  I mean there in a super position where they can exist in multiple states at any given….time….wait are you say that your just like quantum states/particles?

  Yes in the human mind or as I should define in all 3-Dimensional thinking there is a beginning and an end alpha and omega however even in 3D thinking there is a symbol that symbolizes no beginning and no end always has been always will be what do you think that symbol is?

  Infinity.

  Correct my state is infinite and fluctuates on the quantum scale. However even in an infinite state there are still different types of infinities and I self fluctuate into some these different types of infinities.

  I think my brain just broke all the big numbers I've been learning and understanding creating matter from mere thought now I learn that there are different type of infinities….

  No young one its only your just beginning to understand the fluctuations even if its on a small scale your still learning and once you know and understand what I know and understand the reason to all of this will become clear….

  So then why don’t I just put all my knowledge together and stop playing around then…

  ***You expand your mind across this universe sized library of a playground And imagine your being moved from where you are to where you need to be which is right in front Xhy in all his unknown glory***

  ***You open your eyes stagger a little from the blurred vision but in front of you is a being a being you don’t know how to describe in words a mass of tentacles, eyes, flesh and teeth lined maws grabbing books glancing at them and putting then back in a never ending cycle***

  ...Xhy……?

  ***Wow you don’t know how you know but this is Xhy and all the mouths on this mass of flesh just gave a very unnerving smile.***

  Ahhh you found a more simplified method of getting here faster regardless you made it here even if it were to take trillions upon trillions of years which in all fairness I'm not including all the time you spent in hibernation only the time you were actually awake a little less than 2 weeks as it were.

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  So I believe we had a deal when I got here you would truthfully and honestly answer all my questions and you already answered a few to sate my curiosity.

  I did already answer some questions but I think the main question you have is why me and how can I be your successor and for what purposes. To answer any of these we need to go back back when there was only one and that one was all and that all is one, sounds like anime reference doesn’t it, no there was only (Aza)/Thoth the supreme and most powerful and only entity in existence but over time and before time it grew tired with itself there was only itself and nothing else it was and currently is infinity itself but it was bored and for lack of a better word lonely so it imagined if there was another of itself… and nothing infinity can not replicate itself as it is infinity itself but then it though what if there could be others similar but not infinite of itself and it happened the creation of the Ultimate Outer Gods who were in actuality a portion of his infinity given form but separate from itself and finally it wasn't alone for a time these entities enjoyed existence and conversation and meaning but one of these creation annoyed Azathoth we do not know what caused it only that it angered Azathoth. So it was without warning the entity ceased it existence not death just ceased to be.

  The Other UOG (Ultimate Outer Gods) dreaded what would happened if they upset there progenitor so a scheme was devised a most seditious scheme indeed they acted in way as to encourage the creation of another of there own with a portion of the supreme ones intelligence to act out as a converser with the supreme one and so this being came into existence a being that could hold sensible conversations with the supreme one as to learn all that it could to use it against the supreme one. That being is me Xhylowracth who’s creation and mission to find a way to stop Azathoth from destroying its creations and shackle it if it got upset with any of us.

  Wait so you were created by Azathoth to be and intellectual converser but secretly as a way to stop this Azathoth thing?

  Yes currently he has only been lulled to sleep should he ever wake all realities all creation would cease to be no death, no chaos, no destruction just an empty void and in the middle Azathoth seething in rage and fury over what his creations did.

  How was it even lulled to sleep if this Azathoth is so powerful?

  Ever observant and an interesting story in itself but as I was created to be an intellectual comparable to the supreme one he was still as a child throwing tantrums as I was like that of an elder wise and calculating and so the greatest trick was set into motion. We came up with a plan when we noticed something peculiar with one of the other UOG his name was Ghroth and it liked to do what could be considered the equivalent to humming or singing and whenever he did this Azathoth would fallen into a slumber so to speak mostly asleep slightly awake really not noticing much of whats going on. Thats where we devised our plan and Ghroth was the key to all of this. As Azathoth spawned us so did we learn to spawn lessers of ourselves there are many of these lessers that would simply in time be called outer gods most are nameless but subservient to us for there creation and simplified duties for there-selves.

  Ghroth created several in actuality to play the very first musical instruments and this so delighted the supreme one it wished to constantly here the music it so enjoyed and we had him a simple yet effective trick he was in all essence bound and shackled and didn’t event realize it at least not yet. We were free to explore our own existence and ponder reality itself (Incidentally this also where the supreme one earned his moniker as the Blind Idiot God) for within his musical shackles he dreams a most deep sleep and in the moment he inadvertently created reality as you know it the cosmos his dreams became manifest and we ourselves marveled at this and curiosity could not sate us we started exploring.

  Stars, black-holes, planets and yes life itself we wanted it to learn it to understand it did Azathoth know it we weren’t for sure but we made a small mistake a mistake that we do not know if it could or would cost us.

  Wait wait….Wait a minute were all just his dream were not real?

  I never once said that you are a dream but to put it bluntly you are the byproduct of creation made manifest through dreams through sleep and we are the byproduct of creation made awake through will and emptiness.

  I’m …….I’m sorry that was incredibly rude of me it just made me overthink and I jumped to conclusions it, its a lot to take in.

  I found no fault nor any rudeness you reacted to a truth that few others know I would've actually been concerned had you not reacted as you did so as you humans would say no harm no foul.

  Thank you I still feel shame for reacting as I did but please continue and I wont to know I want to know it all!

  And know it all you shall but lets take a small break hmm? One of these Poke’bowls you enjoy so much come lets us enjoy one together to ease tensions it was a lot to take in was it in.

  It was a lot to take in, everything thats happened seeing you in the flesh so to speak learning of my...no all of existence.

  End Chapter 4